Lately, I have been feeling a lot of changes, most of it internal.
I can feel that I am not so jaded and idealistic anymore. Perhaps watching the movie Coco gave me some more ideas about the things that truly matter in life – family, friends, and love. It’s hard to choose between these things and striking out on your own in a hip city like Toronto. I want to watch my sister grow up and be there for Oreo when he gets old.
I think subconsciously, when I was first deciding on whether to go to the east coast for university or not, I chose my family and Oreo (who was just a puppy at that time) over my own ‘dreams’. But everything turned out okay despite me having serious doubts about this decision all throughout my university years.
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The last time I did ‘a day in the life‘, it was for a crazy hectic one when I have classes scheduled. Today is Wednesday and I don’t have any classes scheduled. Here is what I did on my ‘day off’.
7:50 am- Even though I don’t have to go to class today, I still set my alarm for quite early so I can (hopefully) get more work done. But my willpower is just not strong enough. I turn off my alarm and go back to sleep.
9:34 am – I finally wake up and decide to crawl out of bed. But not before I go on my phone for some twenty minutes to check emails and messages.
10:10 am – I eat a quick breakfast of taro bread ~ something delicious mom got from the Asian grocery store.
10:45 am – I leave the house to catch the bus to school. Not to attend class, of course, but to skate and do some research work.
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A quarter-life crisis, in my opinion, is similar to its mid-life counterpart – merely an existential crisis manifesting at critical points of a person’s life. It is marked by the questioning of one’s identity and way of life, as well as periods of depression which may last up to a year or two.
Relatively speaking, it is a first-world problem, but that does not mean it is unimportant as it will still affect your quality of life.
As someone who has experienced a quarter-life crisis, I’ve become quite the expert on the topic. So in this blog, I’ve compiled three telltale signs that might mean you are going through a quarter-life crisis.
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Once in a while, I like to write down what a day in my life is like. It’s just something I find really cool to read years down the road to see how my life has changed over time. So here is what my typical Tuesday day is like this semester.
6:11 am – It’s still dark out since its winter. I manage to drag myself out of bed after hitting the snooze button about three times.
6:30 – after washing my face, I head downstairs to the kitchen. Lately, I have been loving avocado toasts so I go make one. I like to season mine with salt, pepper, and lemon juice. I also eat some congee leftover from last night’s dinner.
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As someone who has gone through a quarter-life crisis, I can tell you first hand that the boundary between feeling like a normal twenty-something versus a quarter-life-stricken twenty-something is quite blurry. I didn’t go to sleep one night feeling happy with my life and wake up the next morning all depressed and confused. In fact, I haven’t been feeling like myself for about a year before I even realized what was happening.
The turning point for me came when I went on an internship halfway across the world in Germany. At this time, I was 21 and had been feeling unhappy about my friendships, unsatisfied with my relationships, and disappointed about where my career was heading for several months. I felt like none of these things that made up the pillars of my identity truly represented who I am. To make matters worse, I had no idea where these feelings were coming from and I certainly didn’t know how to make myself better. So I did what my gut told me – which was to go far away from everything (and everyone) I ever knew.
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This Thursday afternoon, there was a career fair for the engineering faculty students. Kaya asked if we could go together, as she has never been to a career fair before. I agreed and we met up around noon.
I had been pretty confused about the direction of my career this past year. But somehow, going to this career fair made me realize I am slowly warming up to the idea of working as an engineer again. And also, I was more selective on the type of jobs I want. For example, I knew I didn’t want to work for construction companies, so I skipped them.
At a paper mill company, I talked to a really nice guy who graduated last year. I found out the company has a green philosophy and have worked hard to incorporate renewable energy in their factory. The job didn’t require a lot of field work either (something I don’t want to do). Everything sounded like a good fit (and I was ready to ask him how to apply) until I found out the company is in a small town five hours away by driving.
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Looking back at my life over the course of 2017, I would say it was marked by a lot of confusion, alone time (aka. loneliness), and change. I was feeling the full effects of my quarter-life crisis and it wasn’t at all pleasant.
Here are some things that happened to me in chronological order.
In 2017 I …
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Last Friday, I attended Soleil’s birthday/going away party where I saw some old high school friends who I haven’t seen in over two years.
While talking to Soleil at the party, it became clear to me that she is now backing out of our summer plans to go to Montreal. Stella too, said she decided she doesn’t want to go anymore. To say that I was a little annoyed would be an understatement.
Fine. I’ll go by myself (and make new friends there). I don’t need these people.
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As a chronic night owl, I have always been proud of my creative spirits (fun fact: night owls are more creative) and my ability to stay up until the wee hours of the night. However, I have always admired people like my dad who can climb out of bed every day at the crack of dawn. I want to give the early bird lifestyle a shot. And what better time to do it than on vacation when my regular routine will be disrupted?
To make this goal tangible, I made two rules for myself before leaving. The first is that I must get up before the sunrise, and the second is that I must catch the sunrise on camera.
After a week in Cancun, I am proud to say that I managed to achieve this goal. Here are the results of my little experiment.
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Right now, I am sitting on the plane as I write. It’s a gorgeous day outside and we are flying high above the clouds. I can see miles in each direction.
Overall, I had such a nice time away from normal life. I feel so much more refreshed and ready to take on the new year!
Below are some notes I took over the course of this week for a quick look back on this trip.
Monday, December 25
– arrived at 8 pm, ate dinner (at La Palapa), went to sleep
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